Saturday 30 August 2008

Isn't it strange...

...how people who meant the world to you at one time, probably have no clue what you're doing right now and couldn't care less.

...how new people become so important in your life that your every day choices revolve around them.

...how God can change the way you see things so much that you feel everything you were before was so ridiculous!

...how people will try their best to change you and make you what you're not but when you really change they will despise the new you!

...how sometimes no matter how many "friends" you have around you, only a prayer to God can make you feel like someone's there for you!

...how the way life goes only makes sense in retrospect.

...how no matter how much you try to some people will NOT understand what you are saying.

...how little misunderstandings can ruin a relationship if they're not talked about immediately.

...how when you write on a blog, you have the strongest impulse to always say "wise" or rather "deep" thoughts as opposed to regular ramble!

Wednesday 20 August 2008

To all them fancy authors

You write a book and it's what you think really.
I buy it on Amazon and know what you think.
I don't even know you but in so many ways I do.
Your book is a piece of you, isn't it?

You try and argue your case with me,
Tell me your 'truth' and beg me to believe
I like your thoughts but may not always conform
I have my own and you'll see them soon

So allure me and coax me, draw me and entice me
I will come only as far as I let myself
I will enter your mind and bookmark what you think
And then I will think and I will write

You will hear me and see me and get into my head
You will know what it is to be me very soon
You will drop your jaws and be apalled at my words
But write I will and read you will

I will challenge anything you've every thought
I will ruffle your feathers and make you uncomfortable
I will shake your beliefs and make you ask questions
My book will be just what you'd wished yours was!

But honestly, I'm only a girl with a pen
No actually a girl with a small broken laptop
Who dreams of this book that will change the world
Who knows maybe one day it will

- The wannabe author

Tuesday 5 August 2008

You and me

You are another person.
You can't be me...so don't try.
I can't make you me...so I won't try either.
You be you and I'll be me.
Let them be them.

You won't ever change. You like to be you.
Then what makes you think you have the right to change me?
Don't even try to change me because I will.
I will change and become something you don't like.
Then you will complain about how I am not what I used to be.
Then I will try to be what I used to be.
Then you will be like 'You're confused'
But I will be like 'No you are!' because you don't know what you want me to be.

Go home and sleep now. Don't come to haunt me. Don't worry me, don't doubt me, don't trouble me and don't judge me. You think you are perfect but guess what no one can be perfect. I don't need you to tell me what to do anymore. Or how to be like.

You refuse to leave no? You know what? I regret creating you. Over the years, I formed you in my head. You are the ideal me. The me I'd like to be. But truth is - I don't need you anymore. I've made a strong decision to be imperfect and vulnerable. To learn from mistakes and be human like I am. You don't exist. So stop nagging me. Get out before I kill you.

PHEW!!! That was tough exorcism, ha?