End of Year.....

Gosh...the years ending already! I started this blog at the start of this year and it just seems like yesterday!

Time flies like its got eagle's wings...

'End of year' times get me quite contemplative usually. What did I actually DO this year? Did I learn something new? Am I any wiser than in 2007?

I'll come back when I have something to say for myself!

:)

writing

I miss writing. I miss writing on this blog. I miss writing in my diary. I miss writing in my journal. I miss writing letters. I miss writing notes. I miss writing. Period. But hey, having said that, alteast I'm back in the game!! :) You can't ignore what you love to do for a really long time. It will catch up with you. It will eat you like a carnal desire that you can't resist. It will take over and push you to the edge. It will make you want to wish you could do it all the time, anywhere, anyhow. You can stay away from it but you can't run from it. It will have you and it will be what people know of you. Lord, help me 'love to do' the right things....beautiful things....things that you look at and enjoy seeing.....like this little blog here that probably no one but you reads... :) I'm back and it feels good.

Wisdom from an empty stomach...

* Why is it that when you want something badly you are willing to do anything to get it? When you aren't willing to do everything in your stride to get something, you probably don't want it enough, no?

* When you decide to do something that you find extremely difficult, and you muster all your strength and your will and whatever little faith you have to do it, all hell will break loose to make sure you don't do it. But yet every time you overcome the littlest hurdle say 'no' to a little temptation even, the joy and pride you feel within yourself is almost tangible.

* Passion can't help but be palpable. You usually don't say you're passionate about something, it exudes through every thing you do. It's contagious but so is mediocrity. Let's surround ourselves with people who challenge our thoughts, question our words, disciple our deeds and build our character.

* It's healthy to question your faith every once in a while. By doing that you remind yourself of your inability as a human to understand God's timing, to perceive His 'bigger picture' and to construe the oh-so-many divine happenings that guide you everyday. It is good to remind ourselves of this because it leads us to realise that the only ability we as humans have is the 'ability to believe, to have faith'. This brings us back to believing that it's better to live by faith than scepticism and worldly logic.

* When nothing seems to go the way you want it to go, it only means that the way you want it to go is the way its not meant to go. God lets us have dreams but He won't let us hasten to make them come to pass. Time - It's such a hard thing to understand. God created time. He thinks beyond it into eternity where times doesn't exist. But here we are encased in time and our minds can't even fathom the fact that God's plans for us are not encased in time. They are for eternity.

A close friend always tells me, live each day as it comes. I know she is right. It's useless asking where and how. We must think - here and now!

Uyirae Uyirae

I don't think I can ever write or say anything so meaningful to someone. This is a song from a tamil movie but the words have said everything I've ever wanted to - to God who I love more than my life and to everyone who means the world to me!

Uyirae Uyirae

uyirae uyirae .. vandhu ennoadu kalandhuvidu
uyirae uyirae ennai unnoadu kalandhuvidu
ninaivae ninaivae endhan nenjoadu kalandhuvidu
nilavae nilavae indha vinnoadu kalandhuvidu
kaadhal irundhaal endhan kannoadu kalandhuvidu
kaalam thaduththaal ennai mannoadu kalandhuvidu

(uyirae)

en suvaasak kaatru varumpaadhai paarththu uyirthaangi naaniruppaen
malarkonda penmai vaaradhu poanaal malaimeedhu theekkulippaen
en uyir poagum poanaalum thuyarillai pennae adharkaagavaa paadinaen
varum edhirkaalam un meedhu pazhipoadum pennae adharkaagaththaan vaadinaen
mudhalaa mudivaa adhai un kaiyil koduththuvittaen

uyirae uyirae inru unnoadu kalandhuvittaen
uravae uravae inru en vaasal kadandhuvittaen
ninaivae ninaivae undhan nenjoadu niraindhuvittaen
kanavae kanavae undhan kannoadu karaindhuvittaen

kaadhal irundhaal endhan kannoadu kalandhuvidu
kaalam thaduththaal ennai mannoadu kalandhuvidu
uyirae uyirae vandhu ennoadu kalandhuvidu
ninaivae ninaivae endhan nenjoadu kalandhuvidu

oar paarvai paarththae uyirthandha penmai vaaraamal poayvidumaa
oru kannil konjam valivandha poadhu maru kannum thoongidumaa
naan karumpaarai palathaandi vaeraaga vandhaen kannaalan mugam paarkkavae
en kadungaaval palathaandi kaatraaga vandhaen kannaa un kural kaetkavae
adadaa adadaa inru kanneerum thiththikkinradhae

uyirae uyirae vandhu ennoadu kalandhuvidu
uyirae uyirae ennai unnoadu kalandhuvidu
ninaivae ninaivae endhan nenjoadu kalandhuvidu
nilavae nilavae indha vinnoadu kalandhuvidu

manampoal manampoal undhan oonoadu maraindhuvittaen
mazhaipoal mazhaipoal vandhu mannoadu vizhundhuvittaen
uyirae uyirae inru unnoadu kalandhuvittaen
ninaivae ninaivae undhan nenjoadu niraindhuvittaen

Jesus.....(again)

It’s amazing how only you can pull me out of my most distressing situations and make me smile.

No matter how much I try, it’s only when you are there that things work out the way they should.

Whenever I find myself in an inconsolable state, only you can reason with me.

I can attempt grandeur at all that I do but I fail miserably unless you help me.

What would I have done without you?

Where would I go when not a soul understands me but you?

Who would I talk to when no one even knows that I need to talk to someone?

When I find a place to cry alone, I know you see me. I know you care and how you try to show me.

I know you are so concerned that you look out for me.

You send people my way to help me cope.

You rearrange the universe just so I can get by one day more easily.

And do I deserve this?

Have I in my fickle and erratic thoughts even considered what I can do back for you?

Why do I look for affirmation from others?

Why do I want to be loved more?

Why can’t I be satisfied?

Yet you never give up, do you?

You can’t get your eyes off me, can you?

You insist on loving me more every day, don’t you?

Though I pretend otherwise, I can’t live without you.

I can’t work.

I can’t write.

I can’t be.

Thanks for being there!

Jesus.....

...what would I have done without You?
...where would I be without Your love?
...when have I ever been worthy of Your blessings?
...why did You choose me?
...how could I live without this faith You put in my heart?
...can anyone ever touch me the way You have?
...do You never give up on me?
...would I survive a day without Your help?

...Thank You for deciding to make me.

Isn't it strange...

...how people who meant the world to you at one time, probably have no clue what you're doing right now and couldn't care less.

...how new people become so important in your life that your every day choices revolve around them.

...how God can change the way you see things so much that you feel everything you were before was so ridiculous!

...how people will try their best to change you and make you what you're not but when you really change they will despise the new you!

...how sometimes no matter how many "friends" you have around you, only a prayer to God can make you feel like someone's there for you!

...how the way life goes only makes sense in retrospect.

...how no matter how much you try to some people will NOT understand what you are saying.

...how little misunderstandings can ruin a relationship if they're not talked about immediately.

...how when you write on a blog, you have the strongest impulse to always say "wise" or rather "deep" thoughts as opposed to regular ramble!